whatever,

fed up with this shit.
always think about yourself and never me.
i have feelings too!
and yannoe what?
im losing feelings for you.
you never take the blame,
i ALWAYS do.
My fault for starting the fights,
my fault for wanting attention,
my fault for wanting to talk,
my fault for not talking,
my fault for waking you up,
my fault for being jealous,
my fault for loving you.

whatever already,

contemplating

maybe it is time, maybe for me and not you.
time to let go. i dont want to hold on to something i cant have.
i dont want to pretend everything's gonna turn out how YOU expect it to turn out.
that's just a fairytale. never to come true.
i dont want to hold on when you dont even want to hold on.
i dont want to hold on if my heart is always gonna break,
just like its breaking right now.

mistakes

mistakes will always be made,
and for me, always repeated.
i dont like being second...

byul (star)

i feel like star gazing today. not much happened today, but hopefully something will happen later. talked to calyx and lizard, read stories and text messages here and there. hm, craving some japanese food now. no, im not pregos, like some people think, lol. kidding.